In which Draco finally gets Potter’s undivided attention.
The Great Hall was so vacant at breakfast on Saturday that Draco thought the holidays had arrived a few weeks ahead of time. Apparently, two separate parties had raged on till well after midnight—one for Diggory, thrown by the Hufflepuffs, and one for Potter, thrown by the Gryffindors. On top of that, about half the older Slytherins and Ravenclaws had gone at the break of dawn to a Forbidden Forest expedition with Hagrid for Herbology and Creatures credits.
Blaise had refused to get out of bed. Draco had heard him return to the dorm late last night but had been too mortified even to peek through his bed curtains.
“What did you do to him?” he had asked Greg in a whisper as they ascended from the dungeons.
“Don’t worry about it, boss. There isn’t a single bruise on him.”
Continue reading The Chase
The calm before the storm.
Friday, November 27, 1994
Next morning, Draco could detect no trace of the bubo. He spent half an hour inspecting his armpits, feeling them carefully for signs of swelling, but there was nothing there. Between worrying about it and failing from minute to minute to keep Potter and his merciless words out of his mind, Draco thought little of the mild, nebulous ache at the top of his right thigh while he slathered himself with soap in the shower. But then it made itself known more insistently when he lifted his leg to put on his pants. He felt gingerly about the base of his cock, where his hair, such as it was, grew thickest. Sometimes he got painful zits there, deep under the skin and as hard as pebbles, that he’d squeeze viciously till they’d discharge their load of blood-streaked puss over his fingers, taking twisted pleasure in it even though he knew the spell to remove them painlessly.
This time, however, the pain surrounded something large and soft. A swelling.
Sweat broke on his forehead. He spread his legs wide and bent to have a look.
And there it was: the bubo. Not in the armpit, but in the groin. It was smaller than Vince’s, but darker, perhaps on account of the pallor of Draco’s skin. Vince had said it didn’t hurt, but Draco’s did. And it didn’t seem as solid, or as loose under the skin. Draco’s pulse ticked as if he were running while he poked and prodded at it, terrified and hopeful.
Continue reading The Ache
In which Draco acts on a very stupid impulse.
Thursday, November 26, 1994
“Potter’s staring at us again,” Pansy told Draco over dinner. They were sitting together. They had spent pretty much every free minute of the last three days together, at the cost of Draco’s precious time with Potter’s Invisibility Cloak, parading within easy sight of the Gryffindors: holding hands, whispering, laughing. An excellent start, but more was to come. Draco would kiss her, soon, and ask her to be his girlfriend. That should put a stop to any and all rumors.
He had been a bit ridiculous, reacting as he had to what he’d heard in the Champions’ tent. Of course Finnigan didn’t know. Nobody knew. Draco hadn’t told anyone and, more importantly, he hadn’t done anything. The closest he had ever come to practicing his homosexuality was that cringe-worthy moment from the guest bathroom in the Manor, when ten-years-old Theo, visiting with his parents, touched Draco’s soft little ten-years-old willie. Theo had meanwhile proceeded to snog just about every other girl in school. If he was still interested in other boys’ willies, he was very good at hiding it.
And, Draco had realized, there was no reason he couldn’t do something similar, too. Pansy was willing enough.
Continue reading The Fever
In which Seamus takes one for the team.
Tuesday, November 24, 1994
Draco woke up before sunrise, wide-eyed and nervous. By the time the other boys rose, such a knot had tied itself in his stomach he thought he might be sick. He couldn’t bear the thought of food and skipped breakfast altogether, opting to wait outside, at the same spot where he and Potter had stood last night, till the crowd poured out and carried him along. Pansy found him and clung to his arm all the way to the stands that had appeared in the woods overnight, chattering excitedly to his absent nods and smiles, while he imagined the worst. What if Potter were to die, and last night had been the final chance Draco would ever have to… do something? Make his feelings known, for better or for worse?
Continue reading The First Task
In which a deal is sealed by magic.
Monday, November 23, 1994
Vince was acting oddly. He and Draco stood next to one another in Charms, doing the Accio-Levioso combination drills with cushions magicked to whine and squeal when dropped. Vince’s cushion was moaning non-stop. He seemed to struggle with the wand gesture, the most trivial part of the exercise, holding his arm out at an awkward angle.
“Does it hurt?” Draco asked in a whisper. “The bubo?”
He had been thinking about it every day, torn between morbid fascination and the distasteful intimacy of it all: of asking to look again, of the disrobing, of the sights and smells of Vince’s bare body. He wasn’t about to miss this chance to sate his curiosity.
Continue reading The Summoning Charm
In which Draco endures an embarrassing rant.
Friday, November 20, 1994
Draco caught himself smiling unwittingly several times during lunch as the Oxalis adventure replayed in his mind, the images fresh and heavy with emotion. It took a herculean effort to keep his gaze on his food and on his fellow Slytherins, and not glance even once in the direction of Potter’s place on the other end of the Great Hall, though his eyes were drawn to it like the needle of the compass to the north. He spoke and laughed louder than usual, brimming with excitement, till he noticed Professor Snape’s watchful eyes on him. Draco toned it down, then. But the golden glow in his chest persisted, pulsing with his heartbeat.
It still simmered, ready to burst out as laughter or theatrics at the slightest provocation, when he knocked on the door of Professor Snape’s office after the afternoon period.
Continue reading Snape’s Warning